Sunday 15 January 2012

Chasing what age and vulnerability...

So here we are again.  I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to be the people pleaser i have been at work. I'm tired of trying to fit in and be included but I've been feeling completely left out and walked over at work...I cant help but feel no one likes me there, God where did my minimal self esteem go?
i don't seem to fit in anywhere and my only friend remains...my sister in law Skip. I never thought I'd be chasing 33 and feel so vulnerable..

It just feels that my colleagues aren't cutting me any slack, nor does anyone seem to understand the massive emotional strain when living with a stressful job, new situation or moving across the other side of the country...where many are related {cue Deliverance music}
maybe I'm losing my capacity to cope...is that possible? is it normal? Am I normal?
How can I go and save the world if I can't even save myself?!
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