Wednesday 13 June 2012

The rudest thing on earth....

Not so sure that's how I wanted our meeting to go...The in-laws had just left.....and I just can't believe what happened. 
WHO asks those kind of question's??!! WHO in their right mind???    

The lead up was us talking about my recent catch-ups with my peeps, and she asks; 
"Had any of them commented on how you......... look different??" I just KNEW she was alluding to me gaining a stack of weight since I got here last year.
 I just thought...   "WTF!! you did NOT just ask me that..." I looked at dad and he was looking down...
"What?!" I said thinking I must've been in shock, stunned and lost for words whilst trying desperately not to jump across the table and strangle her...
"You know," she LITERALLY smiled innocently "did any of your friends notice and comment 
on if you've gained weight or lost it? Did any of them say you look good, or different, or that you've lost any weight?"............

About a thousand things were racing through my mind right then, pretty much like 'you bitch, you rude, bitch!' and for those who know me, know I've have major hangups and obsessed about my weight for as long as I can remember.....

She kept going on still smiling as if she didn't just ask the rudest question in history...whilst she kept digging a hole with her words.....I wanted to bury her in it. Right there and then.

My response: "Actually I was the one that spoke about it first and how depressed I've been since I got here, it's a huge culture shock.......".

Her response????? changed the topic as if I hadn't just dropped the D-bomb.....
now?... I'm left feeling like I need to scream and shake her shoulders whilst yelling "Didn't you JUST hear what I said???? I just told you I had been suffering depression from culture shock....from YOUR CULTURE!!!!!!!
.I am completely alone....I think I almost made my Counsellor cry yesterday because I said it feels like I dont have anyone supporting me...