It's been around 3 weeks now that I haven't really wanted to leave the house except for work.  I'd like to work all the time...it stops my mind from the business inside it. So busy, it torments me.  Work is the only way I can stop it.  But when I'm at work I can barely function at times and wonder "what the heck am I even doing here?" only to exhaust myself and the endless cycle of being rundown begins again.

 I can finally understand the saying;

 "when you give someone an inch, they take a mile"....I honestly feel like pieces of me are missing, chunks of me infact.  This happens every time we have contact either txt, calling or face to face time.  I allowed her into my life and brought my guards down for a couple of weeks...I never again want to allow this control freak to take from me the way she has, nor constantly interfere in our lives the way she does.  Seriously...I've never been treated like a child the way she continually checks up on us as if we aren't able to take care of ourselves!!  I have survived my own mothers mishaps...now I have to survive the mother in laws...

 So I finally get to speak with my new psychologist, she's fantastic, ex RN of course! ;) What she told me was news I was not expecting to ever hear.  She tells me that if I keep going the way I am, and constantly allowing the MIL to disrespect my own boundaries, disregarding my own emotions for the sake of the family's and MIL's and of course, my husbands, that I am rapidly heading towards a mental breakdown......

Of course my husband doesn't want this to happen....but when will he finally stand up to his interfering and Jezebel-like mother? Surely he can see the effect this is having on me and our lives..?! And yet, not enough to motivate him to action.  :,,(

I have no friends in the Mount. Would someone like to move down here?  Maybe there's a good reason as to why we haven't bought a house yet..Maybe I need to move away from the MIL? Would Perth be far enough, or would we have to go OS?? I dont think I could handle another huge move and starting all over again...just.not.up.to.it. :(

Would I go back to Q? it would be easier with such wonderful friends there..I can find work anywhere, but my husband cannot. 

So, I am left once again in limbo it feels...yet between a rock, and a hard place.....